In Japan, there is a word. If you mind to prepare to die, you can do everything. It's true. Because Death is the last choice of the life. But What is preparing to die. I can feel very boring in my life now. Noone appreciate me at all. And my opinions are always denied or ignore. It is the biggest reason to discourage my mind. And I cannot share it to anyone. It seems to me that no one can understand my situation deeply. Because I cannot explain well. and I have none to be able to share it. I could understand it is my problem. But I cannot find any result. Recently, I always think about die. If I die, who will feel sad... My Family... I think also, if I will make will to die, How do I write it. To my friends. I can. Even they cry. To Office, my boss. Never mind, No problem. No one feel really sad. only that time. I know. But... How can I write to my family... I can image very easy my parent will be cry. They might be crazy... I really don't want to make them to be cry/crazy. So ...
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